I’m Back

March 3, 2011

It has been a long time since my last post to this blog. Believe me when I say Life has been happening! I have celebrated the birth of my fifth child Zoe whose name means “Life from God” and have mourned the losses of my sistah friends marriages. I have experienced the fear and the uknown of my baby being born prematurely and rejoiced in the security of knowing that God will never leave me or forsake me. I have struggled internally with the regret and remorse of one who fears they will never recover from past mistakes. I have rested in the hope that God who has begun a good work in me is faithful to complete it. I have been pressed down by the cruelty of family and have been reborn by the grace of God. I have been dissapointed by broken promises in my marriage and encouraged by our willingness to forgive each other and our tenacious refusal to let go of our union. I have swallowed pride and humbled myself and acted as a servant to promote anothers vision. I have demanded my rights and fretted over perceived wrongs. I have watched a daughter still very much my baby make decisions that thrust her into adulthood and simmered in anger and frustration when my advice to her fell on ears that were not listening. I have admired my daughters commitment to that which she believes in and her ability to give pure sacrificial love. I have worried about my childrens seeming lack of spirituality and marvelled at the great love they shower on me. I have cried, prayed, laughed, shouted, whispered, hoped, loved, lost, found and refused to give up and I am back!